Confession

I've been a bit off the wagon lately (the eating right and being healthy wagon).

I've put on about 5-7lbs and I realize that it's not the end of the world, but for someone who has struggled to conquer the weight issue, it's a big deal.

I'm a stress eater and lately I've been eating like a crazy person, no working out and it's time to get a hold of myself!

Boy quotes from the last couple of days...

"Hey mom! I pooped as big as a dinosaur poop!"

Conversation while riding in the car:

"Mom, is this song about God?"

me: Yes it is! How did you know?

"I just know things mom."

While watching a preview for The Biggest Loser:

"Those people are unhealthy, right mom?"

Me: Right, but they're trying to get healthy! You know, mommy used to be a lot bigger and unhealthier and I had to work on it just like these people."

(little giggles...)

Me: What's so funny???

"I don't know... it's just funny mom."

"How do chickens poop and lay eggs... do they poop on the eggs? I like to eat eggs." (that one is from my middle child.... I love him.)

Me: "Sir! You are supposed to be in TIME OUT! No more talking!!"

"But MOM! I'm talking to GOD and you say that we can ALWAYS talk to God!"

(he got me there.)

moments in the car

So, we're riding in the car this morning and trying out a new cd. It's kids praise songs and the song "Jesus Loves the Little Children" comes on and we all sing along. Then it goes to, "Jesus died for all the children..." We've never sang a second verse to that song and we haven't really had an in depth conversation about Jesus actually dying. My children know that Jesus saved us all, but we've not gone into the entire history. Anyway, my middle son hears the song and says laughing, "Mom, they said "Jesus diapers all the children...haha! That's silly." My hubby and I laughed and the next song came on. A bit later, the song comes on again and my oldest said, "mom, I think they said DIED! But that's not right, Jesus is alive and lives in our hearts." My heart jumped and I was quick to confirm, "you are so right! Jesus LIVES and he's in our hearts!" And then I told him that Jesus did die to save us.... as the words roll out of my mouth I feel like time slowed down a bit. It's amazing how truth rings in our ears. Jesus DID die for us, he DID rise and he is my Lord and Savior. I loved explaining to the boys that Jesus was and is the ultimate superHero!

The moment moved on as my middle son argued that the song did indeed say that Jesus diapers all the children and that is that.

I hear you!

There are times in my life when I find myself saying, "Lord, Ican't hear you! I need you and I can't hear you!!"

I know He's there. I know He is on control. Yet, I panic when I have to be still and wait. Lately, the Lord has been answering some long awaited prayers for us and we're just about speechless by the path he's laying out for us. Down to the little things.

As I was coming home from a photo shoot the other day I found this...

The chalk drawing was made by my middle son and myself and it's a picture of Grammy... the heart shaped leaf however, was placed there by God. I find myself noticing His love notes to me. I stopped, dropped everything in my hands and was so glad to have my camera on my shoulder! I snapped this pic and smiled. I love you, Lord. Thank you for loving me so much.